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preservations… for posterity

Zoloft is making me fat

zoloft blobI hate to admit it, but there it is: Zoloft is making me fat. Additionally, it’s making me tired. I can easily sleep ten hours at night and take a two-hour nap during the day… and then do the same thing the next day, and the next day. Oh yes, and there is one other unpleasant side effect: night sweats. Continue reading

February 27, 2007 Posted by | alternatives, anti-depressants, anxiety, crunchy, health | Comments Off on Zoloft is making me fat

Running through anxiety attacks

I experience a lot of spontaneous, out of the blue anxiety attacks. Other times my anxiety can easily be traced to certain events or happenings. Most unfortunately, running is one area of my life that can cause a lot of anxiety. Remember that I was running when I experienced my first anxiety attack? It hasn’t let up much since then. Continue reading

February 27, 2007 Posted by | anxiety, health, running | Comments Off on Running through anxiety attacks

All-time favorite soups

Recipes for two of our favorite soups: Quick Avgolemono, Orzo and Chicken Soup and Curried Peanut-Squash Soup (which was last night’s dinner). Continue reading

February 26, 2007 Posted by | food, recipes | 1 Comment

Let’s talk about sex, baby

Ina May's Guide to Childbirth“It’s as though they think they invented birth.” My midwife shook her head sadly as she spoke about the views of many obstetricians. I had just met her, but we had already bonded over a shared philosophy of natural childbirth. A midwife for over thirty years, she said that she had seen the pendulum swing both ways when it came to intervention in birth. She couldn’t believe how technological birth is today, and she hoped that the pendulum would soon swing back. I do, too.
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February 25, 2007 Posted by | alternatives, books, childbirth, crunchy, midwifery | Comments Off on Let’s talk about sex, baby

Diagnosis: Anxiety

January 2005: I was jogging on the treadmill at Family Fitness in Hyde Park, Florida. I was pushing myself to run harder and faster because I wanted to run a 5k that spring. At the same time, I was thinking about how I needed to start studying for the CPA exam. Both goals were daunting to me, and I shouldn’t have been thinking about them during tax season. There was already plenty on my plate.

As I ran, I gasped for breath. My chest felt tight and constricted. I really wanted to breath in deeply, but I couldn’t. Frustrated, I finished the run and went home. That night I laid on my bed, trying to calm myself. My chest still felt constricted and I had a smothering sensation, like I couldn’t get enough air. I tried to relax, but I just couldn’t. I had another long day at work the next day, plus my other goals weighed heavily on my mind. Continue reading

February 24, 2007 Posted by | anxiety, health | 1 Comment

Commune Livin’

Perhaps as a testament to my budding crunchy granola side, the topic of communes has occasionally arisen in the course of conversation with friends. While I am quick to extol the virtues of this type of idealistic, collectivistic society, the truth is that I would not make a good commune dweller. My only interest in commune living would be for improved efficiencies, not for any other political or social reasons. My commune would require only the most self-sufficient, individualistic breeds of people, and I don’t believe that there are enough of us to achieve the kind of efficient, peaceful living that I desire.

Plus, I don’t think my husband would ever go for it.

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February 12, 2007 Posted by | alternatives, books, childbirth, midwifery | 1 Comment

Being Perfect

Here is another book that is a refreshing read for the Type-A personality. It’s also refreshingly short, at only 48 pages (half of which are pictures).

It’s about allowing there to be imperfections in your life. It’s about escaping the expectations of others and the expectations you have of yourself.

Look, every day, at the choices you are making, and when you ask yourself
why you are making them, find this answer: Because they are what I want, or wish for. Because they reflect who or what I am.

Genre: Self-help
Source: Bookstore browsing

February 7, 2007 Posted by | books | Comments Off on Being Perfect

Expecting Adam

expectingadamI could relate to author Martha Beck from the beginning. She was a driven, accomplished young woman with an altered view of reality. She had a hard time slowing down and seeing outside the fog of her own expectations.

She was a grad student at Harvard, and she was pregnant with her second child: a boy with Down Syndrome.

What ensues is Beck’s story of coming to terms with her son’s imperfections. She admits to having been afraid of retarded people in the past, and now she carries such a person in her womb. She argues with her husband over what course of action they should take- the prospect of a retarded child is difficult for two Harvard grad students. At first her husband automatically assumes that they will abort the pregnancy. He compares this to putting down a lame horse, because horses live to run. But Beck is already attached to the baby, and she has already begun to believe that her pregnancy is something special. As the pregnancy progresses, Beck’s worldview begins to change. She is no longer living in pursuit of accomplishment or maintaining the facade that she had built around herself. A similar experience begins to happen to her husband, who is also equally driven. One day he sits in the office of a famed professor. As he looks around at the shelves of books and awards, he begins to see the professor in a new light. He is nothing but a “caged hamster running on a little treadmill” whose only goal is to read more academic journals so he can write similar articles which can then be read by other academics.

There’s a lot more to this book. But what I took from is the importance of slowing down and looking for wisdom and truth in unexpected places. Beck and her husband both aspired to be true academics, with little concern for worldly or personal matters. Together they break through the expectations of others, and more importantly, the expectations that they had of themselves. Even with several Harvard degrees under their belts, they learned their most important lessons from Adam. Beck came to the realization that “this is the part of us that makes our brief, improbable little lives worth living: the ability to reach through our own isolation and find strength, and comfort, and warmth for and in each other. This is what human beings do. This is what we live for, the way horses live to run.”

Genre: Memoir
Source: a recommendation found on a message board

February 2, 2007 Posted by | books | Comments Off on Expecting Adam